the resolution.

seriously just feeling so much love for people right now ♥ thank you, Jennie, for the note & lunch! I know I’ve said it so many times before, but you truly are a blessing. I’m lucky to have you in my life.

I love my friends ^___^

my hair is officially long enough to donate again :))) Last time, I donated it to Pantene for cancer patients because that’s where I felt personally connected with. But since I plan on doing this many more times throughout my life, this time I think I’ll donate to a person affected by Alopecia. I didn’t know what it was before, but I know someone who is dealing with it currently, and I’m amazed by her courage. It’s truly a blessing for me to be able to help someone in this way. I can only hope that what I do actually makes a difference.

Now if only I could pinpoint the right time… I was waiting for my sister to get married, but since that’s been pushed back a bit, I think it’s time for an adjustment :]

idk, last year was crazy. I made this huge card covered in pictures & it said things that one can never really be sure about. I guess I was lost in the idea of it all, but looking back, I feel so ridiculous. it’s weird to think that I’ve made a complete 180 in the span of a year. kinda cool, kinda weird. last year was interesting, to say the least…

anyways, tomorrow I’m worry-free. I don’t have to worry about someone else this time. I’m just gonna do me. the whole point of valentine’s day is to express love. doesn’t matter what kind. & I can do that. after all, if you can’t love yourself, you can’t expect others to, right? so I’m gonna love myself, & spend part of my paycheck going to the movies since I haven’t been in a while :] I’m gonna see a sappy chick flick because I can! I’m going to spend the day with friends whom I cherish, and I’m going to relish the fact that I don’t have to worry about anything for a few hours. call me selfish if you will, but it’s really just about being practical at this point.

so happy valentine’s day to you! be sure to show the love in any way you can.

so effing excited to see Coldplay tonight ^_____^

“look at the stars, look how they shine for you.”

there’s a glitch with my iPhone, I freak the eff out. I get all panicky and nervous, and can’t focus on anything else until I’ve figured it out. Today, my Wifi wouldn’t connect… as in I’d go to the Wifi screen and the little wheel would just turn & turn with no result. So I turned it off & back on again, but it was still dong it. So I updated it and stuff on iTunes, and I checked, and it was STILL doing it. By this point, I was scared, pissed, and determined to make it right. So I did that trick where you hold both buttons for 10 seconds, and … IT WORKED! :] I am no longer freaked out.

so yeah, my baby’s okay. guess I love this thing more than I thought. I take better care of it than anything else…

gah. k bye.

when people say that friendship is really something special.

from just the past two weeks alone, I’ve realized how much happier I am now that I’m putting in effort to see my friends regularly. I’m stressing less, sleeping better, getting my work done earlier & faster, and I feel like I end up with more time at the end of each day rather than less. I can’t stress how much it means to me to have people on my side, helping me to succeed and thrive in everything I do. Every day, I’m reminded of how much people care about me, and it’s almost overwhelming. I love my friends to the end of the earth & back, and I can’t thank any one of them enough for just sticking by me and never giving up on me. I was always afraid of people leaving, or getting tired of me, or something along those lines. But now, more than ever, I’m realizing that I don’t have much to fear anymore… and that’s amazing, to say the least.

I’ll probably never say it enough, but I want to say thank you to those who’ve helped me see better days. I can’t say where I’d be without you, because it could be nowhere at all. much love <3 you all know who you are.

A letter to someone you drifted away from this year

To those I’ve drifted away from this year,

I’m sorry. Especially to my H building family… I feel like I could have tried so much harder to hang out with you & just be there for you like a true friend should. C K J & others, I really miss you guys! I’m making some changes & we WILL be seeing each other soon. Thanks for understanding. & to other friends from high school and other areas of life, same thing. 2011 was seriously overwhelming… but I know a lot better now how to handle certain things. I’m looking forward to changes like these :]

A letter to someone who impacted your life the most this year

Dear someone who impacted my life the most this year,

my girls. you’ve been with me through pretty much everything. I learned a very valuable lesson being friends with you… that everyone has characteristics that you may not like & everyone has spells of unhappiness, being effing annoying, and being ridiculously happy. and when you learn to just take those in stride, you really are much more happy because of it. finding people that accept you for who you are is so rare.. it’s kind of ridiculous. & I know, especially with me and all of my quirks and flaws and issues, you people are the ones I really shouldn’t ever let go of. so thank you, my beautiful best friends, because you four make me whole. you impact me in ways I’d have trouble expressing, and for that I’m truly grateful. I love you.

A letter to someone who broke your heart this year

Dear you,

thank you. you taught me so much. you, along with my girls, also helped to show me that accepting people for the good and the bad will get you very far in relationships & life overall. I am sorry for how things worked out, but I know you’re better off without me & I know I’m happier without you, too. I wish you the best of luck with work, transferring, school overall, your family and new niece, and everything. most of all, thanks for finally saying goodbye. I hope you hold no resentment towards me, because this year, I’m just going to let it all go and move on like I’ve been doing for awhile now. I don’t want you to dwell on the past anymore… cause it hurts. well, that’s about it! goodbye once more, I suppose.

A letter to someone who’s been there for you the most this year

To my mom,

I just love you so much, Mama. You’re so sweet, loving, and understanding. Throughout everything, you’re my constant… and I can’t tell you enough how much I need and cherish the bond that we have. I look forward to our adventures through life together, and I know that we’ll be there for each other for a long time coming. Thank you again, for everything. I’d be nothing without you, seriously. To the best mom in the world ♥

is the fact that I severely underestimate myself in every area of my life.

I tell myself I’m an incompetent writer, and yet, I’ve never gotten below a B on a paper in college. I freak out for tests and stress myself out studying for hours and hours on end and I end up doing great on most of them. I’ve never bombed a test in my life…! I shy away from social situations so I won’t be let down.. only to feel worse about missing them later. I compare myself to my friends, telling myself that they’re so much better than me… when they’re mostly my equals. There are even some things that I’m just better at. And the worst part is, it’s getting so bad that I’m starting to make myself sick (literally) with anxiety and worry. & all because I just never give myself enough credit… I think I’ve always tried to go the other way because I hate cocky people so effing much. So by underestimating myself, I then would never have the opportunity to be cocky or pretentious or anything like that. A little bit of pride isn’t bad, though… and I think I would do very well to remember that.

long story short, I’m starting to figure it all out.

finally a good professor for Psych 12 :D
My registration date isn’t bad, so I really hope to take it this quarter so I can finally declare my major.
too bad it’s 6 effing units =O if I screw up, it’ll ruin my GPA. but if I do awesome, & boy do I intend to, it’ll boost the heck out of it in just one quarter… :]
& starting winter quarter, I’m gonna be working on my business classes, too.
oh boy, have I got my work cut out for me… :/
oh well, I can do it.

YEEE BUDDY :D
mini movie shopping spree with my mom at Target today.
they have so many good movies on sale!
I wanted like 10 more.

but thankfully, she bought me these three :}
3 movies for less than $30! not bad, imo.

& I mean, come on. who can resist WILLY WONKA?!
not me, obviously… ;]

2012 ♥

(via perfectbucketlist)

booyahh :]

yes, I just wasted two hours making a duct tape wallet.
it turned out really nice, though :D

my beautiful bio-less schedule <3
I love summer school… it means I only have to take 12-14 units for each regular quarter.
MLIG ;D